If you would have told me five years ago that I would have been at a three-day tradeshow to promote my own business, I would have laughed in your face. There is no way I would have ever done that for many reasons. First and probably most importantly, I am insanely shy, so putting myself out there would have been out of the question for sure. And then there’s that whole thing where I was easily irritated by people and super judgemental.
So, this past weekend I was at the Body, Soul, and Spirit Expo in Saskatoon. My experience was much different than what it would have been before. Am I still shy? You betcha! The only difference is, I am passionate about what I do and believe that I can help make a difference in people’s lives. And yes, I still have this tad bit irritability and judgement, but it is nothing compared to what it used to be (I am human and am working on myself everyday!! I actually love all people now unlike before).
Why do I bring this up? I promised my next post would be about allowance and here it is. Allowance is this cool concept where you just be. You live in the moment without any judgements of yourself and surroundings, you just let things be. You ALLOW the situation to be what it is. That is exactly what this weekend was about for me.
If you would have told me even two years ago that I would be in a booth with the same person for three full days I would have wanted to cry. It is not like I don’t like people, I just like my space. The cool thing after this weekend, is that I still liked my booth partner! Big progress for me. If this was a couple of years ago, I would have been very annoyed by whoever was in the booth with me. Yes, it helped that my booth partner was someone who shared a lot of the same interests as me. In the past, I would have found something to pick apart the whole time to ruin my weekend. I would have been doing the exact opposite as living in allowance.
The second part to this is me actually talking to strangers for three days. This also would have drove me crazy a couple of years ago, instead, I found it exciting. Instead of picking them apart, I was excited about being a part of their health journey. I didn’t judge the paths they led up to this point, how they talked, how they phrased things, or how they dressed, instead I just was grateful for the experience. It was a cool realization once the weekend was over just how far I have come since I started on my own health journey.
I credit all of this to learning about allowance and other amazing tools in Access Consciousness, that I continue to use every day. I am learning to choose things that make me happy and living in allowance gives me the opportunity to do so. Does consistently concerning myself with what everyone else is doing and saying make me happy? No! So then why go there? I should just enjoy the experience for what it is and only concern myself with my own actions.
To many people’s surprise, I am actually excited for my next trade show.